Tips.

If you want to be the best in this business, stick with the master and not the student.

I learned that the hard way. Since I'm a newbie I didn't know who to go with at first. I kept listening to one person thinking that she knows a lot. Turns out she was the student. =_=

Although she is friendly, I don't like her work ethics. She doesn't submit her work on-time and advises me to do the same (and I hate submitting work after the deadline). She doesn't have the proper timing when asking questions. There's so much work to do but she's just there and playing Plants vs Zombies. She keeps on babysitting me when I really don't need that, I just want her to tell me what to do and help me along the way when I'm having a hard time figuring it out. And she goes home even if there is a lot to do. Even a newbie like me has to stay after work just to finish it but she doesn't.

It is infuriating. >_<

Thankfully I know better now.

I'm sticking with the REAL master.

But the master is leaving soon. I only had a few days with her this week. Its not enough because there's so much to learn. Best advice she could give me? Practice and READ A LOT. She studied on her own, so she advises me to do the same.

I'm scared and excited at the same time. Scared because they have high expectations for me. Excited because its such a challenge to meet those expectations.

I'm going to miss my guru. She's inspirational.

I want to surpass my guru, to be the best in this business.

So please pray for my success. :)

OTL

I experienced my first OTY in this new job. They did warn me that its not paid and I could go home but I really wanted to learn how they did the implementation so I stayed.

I wasn't tired from learning last night, but I was really tired because of the trip home. There was no MRT so I had to take a bus ride from Makati to QC.

Something happened on the trip home, the girl in front of me was almost tricked by snatchers! They looked drunk and were waiting for the girl to stand up (they wanted the girl to stand up) but the driver got irritated (because he was right in front of the girl) so the driver stopped the bus in the middle of EDSA. @_@

With all that commotion, the snatchers quickly went out of the bus and thankfully there was nothing stolen. Still, it was scary because it happened right in front of me. T_T

After that I got so paranoid. I clutched my bag tighter and walked faster when I got off the bus. Actually I walked so fast that you could consider it running. ^^;

Thank God I arrived safely. ^_^

Full time... at last?

I got a job. Hehehehe.

I accepted the offer today. Yay! :)

Will be busier than usual.. I guess. I'll be studying a LOT. @_@

I don't want the IT to find me on the intarwebs so details when you see me. (Or on ym. XD)

Two days left!

I don't know why, but the for the past few weeks I've been so busy with work and family stuff. I wasn't even able to go to the HS reunion the other week.

Such a busy bee...

Anyway, for some unknown reason, I feel really excited with Christmas!!! (Or maybe I'm excited to get Sansrival from Chokiss.. haha! Yay! Food! And the fact that I was supposed to go to work later, but it got canceled. Weee... I know these are just mundane things but it made me really happy. Finally a break! :D )

Okay so it wasn't any unknown reason at all. XD

The other day I bought Mom's present. It was in a huge box. And the store didn't have a bag for it. I didn't want the gift wrap ruined so I carried it around the mall and while going home. Phew! Did my arms hurt or what?! ;_;

Just one more day and I've completed Simbang Gabi... for the second time! :D

And another note, I haven't been able to receive text messages last night. Argh! People thought that I was being suplada and not answering but that's not the case. T____T

It's so hard to think of Christmas gifts, that's why here's my wishlist: (I know its a few days late.. okaaaayyyy weeks but you know I was busy soooooo... ;) )

1. Remember Me by Sophie Kinsella
2. Veronika Decides to Die by Paulo Coelho
3. White plastic box where I can stash books and stuff.
4. Post it
5. Coloring pencils
6. Sharpener (the one with the hand crank, oh! oh! and if its battery operated [w/o hand crank]then so much the better! I broke my sharpener/toy [because it looks like a car and has wheels and all xD] last year, so I need a replacement. :( )
7. Playstation 3 with Tekken 6: Bloodline Rebellion (Well... save the best for last! XD)

Alright, I'll stop spouting nonsense. This post is so random. Hehe! I'm soooooo excited for Christmas. I just know its going to be so much fun! :D

APRIL FOOLS! :D

Ivy spoiled it though... next time I'm going to hire you for the joke! Ahahaha~!

That's it I guess... I'm sooooo tired. I just want to go to sleep but I still have stuff to review.

Really super tired.

x_x

I got this from an email. It's something that single people, and even those in relationships should think about. ;)

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PARTNERS AND MARRIAGE
By Eduardo Jose E. Calasanz

I have never met a man who didn't want to be loved. But I have seldom met a man who didn't fear marriage. Something about the closure seems constricting, not enabling. Marriage seems easier to understand for what it cuts out of our lives than for what it makes possible within our lives.

When I was younger this fear immobilized me. I did not want to make a mistake. I saw my friends get married for reasons of social acceptability, or sexual fever, or just because they thought it was the logical thing to do. Then I watched, as they and their partners became embittered and petty in their dealings with each other. I looked at older couples and saw, at best, mutual toleration of each other. I imagined a lifetime of loveless nights and bickering and could not imagine subjecting myself or someone else to such a fate.

And yet, on rare occasions, I would see old couples who somehow seemed to glow in each other's presence. They seemed really in love, not just dependent upon each other and tolerant of each other's foibles. It was an astounding sight, and it seemed impossible.

How, I asked myself, can they have survived so many years of sameness, so much irritation at the other's habits? What keeps love alive in them, when most of us seem unable to even stay together, much less love each other?

The central secret seems to be in choosing well. There is something to the claim of fundamental compatibility. Good people can create a bad relationship, even though they both dearly want the relationship to succeed. It is important to find someone with whom you can create a good relationship from the outset. Unfortunately, it is hard to see clearly in the early stages.

Sexual hunger draws you to each other and colors the way you see yourselves together. It blinds you to the thousands of little things by which relationships eventually survive or fail. You need to find a way to see beyond this initial overwhelming sexual fascination. Some people choose to involve themselves sexually and ride out the most heated period of sexual attraction in order to see what is on the other side. This can work, but it can also leave a trail of wounded hearts. Others deny the sexual side altogether in an attempt to get to know each other apart from their sexuality. But they cannot see clearly, because the presence of unfulfilled sexual desire looms so large that it keeps them from having any normal perception of what life would be like together.

The truly lucky people are the ones who manage to become long- time friends before they realize they are attracted to each other. They get to know each other's laughs, passions, sadness, and fears. They see each other at their worst and at their best. They share time together before they get swept into the entangling intimacy of their sexuality.

This is the ideal, but not often possible. If you fall under the spell of your sexual attraction immediately, you need to look beyond it for other keys to compatibility.

One of these is laughter. Laughter tells you how much you will enjoy each other's company over the long term. If your laughter together is good and healthy, and not at the expense of others, then you have a healthy relationship to the world. Laughter is the child of surprise. If you can make each other laugh, you can always surprise each other. And if you can always surprise each other, you can always keep the world around you new. Beware of a relationship in which there is no laughter. Even the most intimate relationships based only on seriousness have a tendency to turn sour. Over time, sharing a common serious viewpoint on the world tends to turn you against those who do not share the same viewpoint, and your relationship can become based on being critical together.

After laughter, look for a partner who deals with the world in a way you respect. When two people first get together, they tend to see their relationship as existing only in the space between the two of them. They find each other endlessly fascinating, and the overwhelming power of the emotions they are sharing obscures the outside world. As the relationship ages and grows, the outside world becomes important again. If your partner treats people or circumstances in a way you can't accept, you will inevitably come to grief. Look at the way she cares for others and deals with the daily affairs of life. If that makes you love her more, your love will grow. If it does not, be careful. If you do not respect the way you each deal with the world around you, eventually the two of you will not respect each other.

Look also at how your partner confronts the mysteries of life. We live on the cusp of poetry and practicality, and the real life of the heart resides in the poetic. If one of you is deeply affected by the mystery of the unseen in life and relationships, while the other is drawn only to the literal and the practical, you must take care that the distance doesn't become an unbridgeable gap that leaves you each feeling isolated and misunderstood.

There are many other keys, but you must find them by yourself. We all have unchangeable parts of our hearts that we will not betray and private commitments to a vision of life that we will not deny. If you fall in love with someone who cannot nourish those inviolable parts of you, or if you cannot nourish them in her, you will find yourselves growing further apart until you live in separate worlds where you share the business of life, but never touch each other where the heart lives and dreams. From there it is only a small leap to the cataloging of petty hurts and daily failures that leaves so many couples bitter and unsatisfied with their mates.

So choose carefully and well. If you do, you will have chosen a partner with whom you can grow, and then the real miracle of marriage can take place in your hearts. I pick my words carefully when I speak of a miracle. But I think it is not too strong a word. There is a miracle in marriage. It is called transformation. Transformation is one of the most common events of nature. The seed becomes the flower. The cocoon becomes the butterfly. Winter becomes spring and love becomes a child. We never question these, because we see them around us every day. To us they are not miracles, though if we did not know them they would be impossible to believe. Marriage is a transformation we choose to make.

Our love is planted like a seed, and in time it begins to flower. We cannot know the flower that will blossom, but we can be sure that a bloom will come. If you have chosen carefully and wisely, the bloom will be good. If you have chosen poorly or for the wrong reason, the bloom will be flawed. We are quite willing to accept the reality of negative transformation in a marriage. It was negative transformation that always had me terrified of the bitter marriages that I feared when I was younger.

It never occurred to me to question the dark miracle that transformed love into harshness and bitterness. Yet I was unable to accept the possibility that the first heat of love could be transformed into something positive that was actually deeper and more meaningful than the heat of fresh passion. All I could believe in was the power of this passion and the fear that when it cooled I would be left with something lesser and bitter. But there is positive transformation as well. Like negative transformation, it results from a slow accretion of little things. But instead of death by a thousand blows, it is growth by a thousand touches of love. Two histories intermingle. Two separate beings, two separate presence, two separate consciousnesses come together and share a view of life that passes before them. They remain separate, but they also become one.

There is an expansion of awareness, not a closure and a constriction, as I had once feared. This is not to say that there is not tension and there are not traps. Tension and traps are part of every choice of life, from celibate to monogamous to having multiple lovers. Each choice contains within it the lingering doubt that the road not taken somehow more fruitful and exciting, and each becomes dulled to the richness that it alone contains.

But only marriage allows life to deepen and expand and be leavened by the knowledge that two have chosen, against all odds, to become one. Those who live together without marriage can know the pleasure of shared company, but there is a specific gravity in the marriage commitment that deepens that experience into something richer and more complex. So do not fear marriage, just as you should not rush into it for the wrong reasons. It is an act of faith and it contains within it the power of transformation.

If you believe in your heart that you have found someone with whom you are able to grow, if you have sufficient faith that you can resist the endless attraction of the road not taken and the partner not chosen, if you have the strength of heart to embrace the cycles and seasons that your love will experience, then you may be ready to seek the miracle that marriage offers. If not, then wait. The easy grace of a marriage well made is worth your patience. When the time comes, a thousand flowers will bloom... endlessly.

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Anyway I've got a busy, busy week ahead. Gah! Exams everywhere... it's like I'm the one having all these exams. Stressful. @_@

I love bluetooth... :D

I've been having troubles using the USB Data Cable for my phone. Nokia PC Suite can't detect it, and the softwares that are included with the Data Cable are not working. T_T Thank goodness for bluetooth. I only needed the driver and viola! Hello cellphone files~! :P

Anyway, I feel pretty swamped for this week up to next week. Time management galore... Ahaha! XD

I still need to fix the laptop's previous HD. I just have to buy a casing so it would act as an external HD and then I'll try to fix the partition. :)

And I have installed NWN1, but most of the portraits are missing. Wah! T_T I've been looking all over for a solution but boo... no one has experienced the same thing. Suxorz. :(

No more nightmares for me.. yaaaay~! ;)

Do you know the feeling when you're about to snap and so stressed out?

Mom said I should just suck it up and be glad I've got part time jobs. But I think, sometimes I spread myself too thin. WAAAAAY TOO THIN.

But having some money is good.

So.. hmm.. I guess this is how it is when you work and get to go back to your own home. I didn't feel too much stress during the OJT days because I had enough rest. I only felt homesick back then.

Right now, I only sleep an average of 6 hours a day and work 6-10 hours a day excluding the travel time... and the travel experience... urrrrgh. There was a time I had to shout "OMG! I CAN'T GET OUT!!!" in the MRT because the doors were about to close and I couldn't get out of the MRT in Cubao Station, people were entering while I was still inside. It was horrible. T_T

My laptop is heavy and I get paranoid whenever I'm commuting. Gah...

O well... I just have to keep reminding myself that having some money is good. ("Some money" because "too much" = "too bad" for me. Hehe..)

I smell Christmas. Oh happy day~! :D