Saturday, May 31, 2003

Summer classes are over!

Yehey!

Somehow, I'm not that happy because enrollment starts on June 2. Regular classes start on June 9.

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Summer is over.

There has been continuous rain since Saturday, signaling the start of the rainy season. I don't want summer to be over! I want it back! I want to have my sweet vacation now! >_<;;;

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I've been on the F4 hunt these days!

Hahaha! I've got so many pictures of the F4, DaoMingShi and HuaZeLei. Chrissa gave me two today! Waa... I'm so happy! *drools over the pictures*

Sunday, May 18, 2003

Family gatherings are fun... if you're comfortable with them.

Honestly, I'm not really close with my relatives on my father's side. I try... but hey, I really don't feel comfortable with them. Whenever I say a comment, all I get are stares. No other reaction. I don't know if I said something wrong or if I did anything wrong.

Or maybe I'm just worrying too much.

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Good thing one of my cousins from my mother's side came too. Finally, someone who CAN relate. At least I could talk to her without worrying if I did anything wrong, because even if I did she'd tell me. She wont give me that look (which my other cousins do) as if I was an alien that suddenly came on earth.

Maybe going out with my father's relatives is a bad idea. I enjoyed the card games and swimming, sure, but all-in-all I don't get that family feeling from them.

Friday, May 16, 2003

Basketball IS fun! ^_^

Although I did get a few injuries today.. ^^;;; Let's see, a bruise on my knee, on my arms and one on my head. Man... my classmates play rough.

I don't have a particular place. But they usually put me as the power forward or small forward. I also tried being a point guard (but I'm not good with dribbling ^^;;), an off-shoot guard and the center. I don't want to be the center anymore. My classmates are really tall! I feel like a dwarf when I'm competing with them. ^^;

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I'm going to stay overnight at Jayrald's place. ^^

Along with other committee members. :) We're going to plan our projects for next sem. Hehe... planning sem, sounds like we'll just be talking for hours.. :D

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Got more things to do tomorrow, and the next day (my grandma's birthday).

Eek! How did my schedule end up like this? o.O

This is going to be a very long weekend... ^^

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I love Matrix Reloaded!

The action scenes were the best! Although the story line was really confusing because the characters talk really fast and I didn’t get everything they said.

Must have a copy… :)

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I went there with Ivy, Chrissa, Nikki, Tin and Albert. It was fun, I thought Ivy wouldn’t be able to come but when Tin said that she already bought tickets, she was forced to come. ^_^

We got sureseat tickets! And we got the first screening too! We were also the first ones in line so, we got the best seats! Yay! ^_^ I love my friends, they did all this… all I had to do was go there... ^^;;

My favorite part? When they were running away with the Keymaker. :D It was so good. I also love the fight scenes. (Who doesn’t?)

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I want to see Matrix Revolution!

Nyaha! We got to see the trailer after the credits. Everyone already left the cinema and only a few were left to see it! Ha! It’s their loss.

Sunday, May 11, 2003

What?!

Whatever happened to the other forum I was visiting? Why did it suddenly shut down? I think there's some mistake, I don't know any quarrels or anything so why? why? why?

Bring it back.. ;_; Onegai..

Oops! I just got a message from the owner of the site, apparently some immature girl fought with everyone in that forum so the owner decided to ban her and close the site for the meantime so that everyone would cool off.

Oh well…

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I had a visitor a while ago. It was Christopher, my high school classmate, and he was borrowing some vcds. I thought he'd leave after I gave it to him but he insisted to stay. ^^;;; I was surprised since I didn't want to show him the messy house and my really messy room. But he really insisted so eventually I let him stay and we talked in my room. He is so full of stories! Of our old classmates from high school, his UP Manila experiences and the things he has been doing all summer. Actually he doesn't have any summer classes and he's really bored at home that's why he asked to borrow some vcds. He was so demanding, like this one for instance…

Me: Gusto mo ba ng juice? Naku, sorry nakalimutan ko tuloy mag-alok.
Christopher: Oo, gusto ko ng juice. Bigyan mo ako.
Me: Sandali lang ha.
Christopher: Lagyan mo ng ice ha, gusto ko may ice.
Me: Ano ba yan? Demanding! Pano kung wala kaming ice? Di ka na iinom?

Well, that's just one of them. I love contradicting whatever he says. He doesn’t mind because we’ve been like that since high school. He told me that Lorence is now a ramp model. I was surprised! Lorence was supposed to be our future *ahem* President of the Philippines. :P It was a running joke among us because he has been the president when we were freshmen and sophomores. He was even elected DECS Secretary for a week. I never expected that news.

We talked from 5pm to 7:30pm. Non-stop. I didn’t even notice the time I just noticed that it was already dark outside.

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I kinda miss my high school friends. The get-together party is going to be held after the summer classes… it’s still so far… I wish there was some way we could all get to see each other before that.

Saturday, May 10, 2003

Well?

I’ve been writing a lot lately. In my journal, I mean since I won’t use the internet during the weekdays. I’ve been doodling a lot too. I like drawing even though I could only draw SD (super deformed) figures of my favorite characters. It’s better than not being able to draw at all.

I usually doodle during class, especially when my teacher becomes boring. :P Though class has been okay, my first exam certainly wasn’t. But I think I was able to make up for it in the second exam… I hope.

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So, what’s up?

I’ve been up to everything and nothing these past few days. I’ve tried Dance Maniax and now I know that I literally suck. :P But it’s fun, I was able to clear the second stage the last time I tried it. I’m getting better… *grins*

Basketball is a sweaty game. I feel that after every game I’ve already sweat out about two liters of water… And that’s more than the water I consume everyday!

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The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Low

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test

Sunday, May 04, 2003

Thank God for organizations!

I had a fun time during the whole trip. We were supposed to go to Tin's place at 2pm... but we were able to be there at past 3pm. ^^;; Then Tin drived all the way, and Ivy was the navigator and I was.. well.. I was at the backseat and was looking for sign posts, etc. :P We almost got lost because there was this sign that said "<-- Cafe Aurora Resort", we thought that we were supposed to turn left at the next fork in the road. So we did. But we realized that we were so far from the last gas station, so we headed back. I even asked people for directions. ^^;; Then we saw it, and the BIG banner in front. ^_^ Apparently the sign was directly in front of the resort. Hehe.. ^_^

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Looking for adventure?

We went to the market place after a while because Miko and the others were hungry, Ivy and I just tagged along. :) But I went to the convenience store with Ivy and Frank. It was kind-of an adventure because Frank was looking for something. We went to a clothing store, an ukay-ukay store, mercury drug, hbc, avon dealer, and the last place, the market. I even got to see the church over there. A very big, old church. I wanted to go in, but the others were waiting for us. Perhaps I'll be able to go in next time. :)

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Talent show!

It was fun! I was able to vent out my anger and frustrations towards the applicants. Although I didn't try to hurt them, well.... sort-of... ^^

I think my voice was really loud. Ehehe..^^;;; everyone was looking at me at one point... ^^;;;

After that, I went swimming. Ivy was playing cards in the cottage while Tin was in the "bar". I was pretty alone in the swimming pool even though my other org mates were there. I didn't even try to play with them in the water. I was just at one corner of the pool, occasionally swimming to the other end when the others went away. But I didn't really feel lonely. I was just thinking, about things. ^_^ I finished swimming at about 2am, and took a shower. The place was okay although their bathrooms weren't. I was able to sleep at about 4am, and then woke up at 6:30am. Since I already took a bath, I just changed my clothes. Then we ate breakfast and went back home. Tin dropped me off at UP near the chapel since I wanted to attend the mass before I went home. During the mass though, I dozed off... but only for a minute! I was really trying hard to keep myself awake. ^^;;; I went home after the mass, and went straight to bed. I didn't even bother changing my clothes. ^^;; Mom wasn't around when I came so I slept at her bed. :D I woke up at 3pm. And my mom came, apparently she went to my uncle's place.

She told me some news. About my niece, and my cousins. My niece just had a baby. o.O;;; I was shocked because she gave birth a few days ago, on the day that I dreamed about her and she's only 19! >_<;;; Then my cousins have a problem with their girlfriends, one needs to marry his girlfriend and the other one's relationship is going hay wire. Well... I'm not like them, I won't do such mistakes.... I hope.

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Must study for exams.

I've got an exam on thursday. I haven't studied anything.. eep! ^^;;;

Saturday, May 03, 2003

Serves me right.

I’ve just told my mom about the incident yesterday. It was so hard to approach her last night because she just came home from buying some groceries. I wanted to tell her about it, I really wanted to. But I just couldn’t. Pride was getting in the way and I already know how she’d react. I know her too well.

Well, after a few yells that I already knew coming. I went straight to my room to gather my things. I had to pack. Yes, I’m leaving. No, I’m not running away from home. I’m leaving for the organization’s trip to Binangonan, Rizal. It’s overnight so I won’t be back home until tomorrow noon. It’s all good too. I just have to get out of the house. I don’t want those looks of “I-told-you-so” from everyone. Especially my brother. I just know he’ll be so happy teasing me about it. The thought of him making fun of me makes me want to throw up. Damn.

Mom went to my room after a few minutes of calming down. She used the “I-told-you-so” speech and went on and on about how I could have protected my things. I just kept quiet as tears were flowing in my face. I can’t help it. I feel like crying again and again. I just said that I know what I could have done, she shouldn’t bother rubbing it in. Then she left my room.

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I am not alright.

I want to say that I am, but I’m not. It’s so hard to force myself to smile. It’s driving me nuts. I shouldn’t be this sad, after all, it was only a wallet. A wallet, a few ID’s, ATM, a few memorable stuff, ISP cards, I can always get those. So why am I so sad? No… not really sad. I’m mad. Mad at myself for letting such a thing happen.

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Cry?

I’ve been doing that for the past 12 hours. Except when the time I cried myself to sleep. I can’t get it off my head! It wasn’t my fault!

Eek. Realization has come. It was my fault. I should have guarded myself from everyone. I was feeling too safe, I guess. Too safe that I thought nothing bad could happen. Well, I’m back to the real world now. It’s not safe. It’s every man for himself.

Sheesh.

What a selfish thought. Every man for himself.

Selfish? Or just practical?

Is there a difference?

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I’ll be leaving in a few hours! I still haven’t finished packing. I just started to get my clothes when I had the sudden urge to blog and finish reading the mush generators Chrissie and Chenks made. I feel a lot better because of it. Although one of the stories had a sad ending, I almost cried.

Listening to Jason Mraz is not helping. Maybe I should listen to Josh again.

Ooops. I realize that I’ve been posting so many rants now. I apologize to anyone who is reading it.

Friday, May 02, 2003

I’m so mad.

My wallet was stolen a while ago at the mall. I forgot that there was a sale today at SM Megamall, I thought that I’m going there just to watch X-Men 2 with Nikki, Chrissa, Ivy, Tin and her brother. After the movie, Chrissa and Nikki went home while Tin went with her brother to buy shoes. I went with Ivy to look around the mall because I wanted to buy a shirt. We’ve just finished eating at Chowking and we were already picking some clothes when the incident happened.

I was rummaging through clothes and looking for the right shirt when this lady kept on bumping on my right arm (where my bag is) while she was looking for clothes too. I was pissed at how she does that, but I just ignored it. When we went to another shop, I noticed that my bag’s zipper is open. I looked in my bag to see what’s missing and… much to my dismay… my wallet was gone. My wallet, along with my money, my ID, ATM card and more stuff… T_T

Damn bitch! I feel so tempted to use any type of power (voodoo/witchcraft) on her to get back. But I’m also thinking of the consequences. Good thing Ivy was rational enough to tell me to report the loss because I was thinking of leaving the mall as soon as possible. I reported it to the department store officer, the mall security officer and the police. I hope it doesn’t happen to me again.

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I feel so stupid.

How could let anyone get away with that? I’m so paranoid when I’m in crowded places and not-so crowded places and always alert. But why did I let my guard down at that time? T_T

I feel like crying again.

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It was so hard to fight back my tears back there. I really wanted to cry my heart out, but I couldn’t do such a thing in a public place. Anyway, while I was going home and was thinking about the incident, I just couldn’t stop my tears from flowing. ;_; I hope the other commuters didn’t notice me wiping the tears off my face.

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And to think I was so happy the other day because I met the OB people again. It was fun and very entertaining. ^_^

I liked the bus ride going home too! It was like a roller coaster ride. ^_~

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I haven’t said anything about the incident to anyone in the house. I’m kinda scared of how they will react. I’m also embarrassed to let them know that I was *stupid* enough to let my guard down because they’ve always warned me about those things.

Damn…

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Eek! I just realized that my ISP cards (not yet used) are in that wallet! >_<;;;; Now this makes me angrier!