I just had a nightmare... O_O

"In my dream, I was a supplier of fake money. I was supplying fake money to my neighbor with the exchange rate of (Php 1,000 = Php 100,000) because she used them for gambling. Then she won in one of her bets and there were Php 500 around our house (my neighbor scattered the money around us). My mom just got home with my godmother when she caught me picking up the Php 500 bills. She asked me why was I picking those up and I just ignored her. Then someone went beside my godmother and talked about gambling, and my godmother casually said that people were gambling in their own houses (and she was carrying a tin box filled with black/grayish beans that were as hard as stone). My neighbor gave me Php 1,000 to get her more fake bills. I took the money and went inside the house. When I got in, the news on tv were talking about corruption and there were police people outside our house looking for me (because I was suspected of giving out fake bills). I went inside my room and was changing my clothes when my mom learned about my secret and rushed inside. She banged on my door and when she kicked it, I woke up."

I was so surprised when I woke up. I would never trade my values and principles for money. I'm scared that it would haunt me back three folds (karma). >_<;; After realizing that it was just a dream, I prayed so hard that I wouldn't end up like that and I prayed for guidance. ^_^

I guess the Raul Roco's death yesterday really got to me and with all these issues of corruption, stealing votes, and drugs. To tell the truth, I'm still shocked about that news. T_T I like Raul Roco because he's smart, honest (at least a lot more honest than our current president) and had values. I really believed in him. It's just too bad that he got sick. :(

I haven't talked about today's current issues in this blog because it's too depressing but now, I've got to speak up. I have reasons to believe our current president cheated in the elections and that she used the government's money to fund her own campaign. But I'm still torn between wanting her to step down or to stay in that position. I want her to step down because she's doing a lousy job, all her reforms don't have any substance and now she's pushing for a Constitutional Assembly that would most probably put the corrupt government officials in a place of power. I want her to stay because if she was ousted or if she resigned, our economy would plunge down. Plus the fact that there is no "lesser evil" in this case because all the opposition's candidates for the position are also corrupt and would only use the government for their own interests.

Today's dilemma... it haunts me in my dreams. >_<; I believe our country still has a chance to rise from this challenge, if people would stick with their own values and principles, if they took their responsibility seriously, and if they let their conscience be their guide. ^_^