Wheeze...

I am so relieved that two of the toughest exams are finished. :) After the last one, I felt really drained… like life was literally sucked out of my body. I almost fell down the stairs because I was just staring blankly while I was walking. I felt like a zombie…

The first exam was so hard. I only had some ideas how to solve them but only partially because I haven’t actually practiced solving those types of problems. I got mixed up with my formulas for the generator and the motor. Argh…

Anyway, I went home shortly after eating lunch at the cafeteria (I should’ve eaten at home… -_-;) because I left my book. I went back to school before the next exam… I was a little early for the exam so I just took out my notes and started memorizing formulas. When the teacher came into the room, I took out my calculator and pen after he gave me my answer sheet. I went from problem to problem… then rechecking everything because I was able to finish it. While I was rechecking my paper, I found out a lot of mistakes mostly because I was careless and I didn’t pay attention to the given values (I derived the value of one variable even though it was already given… ^^;;; I didn’t notice it the first time I solved it.) I had to rewrite the whole problem and it took me sometime to finish I was only able to look at the other problems because I had no more time to check them all. When we turned our papers in, I looked at the answer key and I saw that I had a lot of errors in the other problems. I think I was too careless… *sighs*

I'm feeling so frustrated. I know the process on how to solve those problems but while I was doing the math… somehow, something went wrong… so I ended up with the wrong answers. It’s one of those bad days that you just want to go home, get into bed and bury yourself in the covers. But when I turned the tv on, guess what? I found a great movie, “Tuck Everlasting” it’s about a family that could live forever. It made me think a lot about the question, “Would you want to live forever?” I’ve been trying to have a debate with myself whether I want to or not. I’ve listed a couple of pros and cons about it. The good side is that I’ll be able to take my time to do whatever I want, I wouldn’t get sick, I wouldn’t die, I could try risking my live because in the end… I’ll still live. The only catch is that I’d never change physically and all the people I love around me will pass away, perhaps there will come a time that I will want to die because it’s the only thing I can’t do and then I’ll regret living forever because I couldn’t die even if I want to. So in the end… I guess I wouldn’t want to live forever.

Another scenario that I thought… if I lived forever in this 20-year-old body then I’ll be taking EEE for the rest of my life… That would be hell for me… >_<

A quote from “Tuck Everlasting”: “Do not fear death, but rather the unlived life. You don't have to live forever. You just have to live.”

Then after watching that movie, I watched “Anger Management” on HBO. I’ve already seen this on the big screen with JM, Chrissa and Nikki. We even experienced a brownout in the theater… that was really testing our anger management… :P It’s still funny, and now I’m able to get the other jokes. *chuckles* Ah… life when I could still go to the theater, now my only life is home-school-org and nothing else… (unless you count my tv time.. ^^;;)

So all-in-all, I’d say I hate having two exams in a day.>_< But I like watching two good movies after the exams.

Speaking of exams, my brother’s taking the board exams today, tomorrow up to Tuesday. 4 days of head-splitting, knuckle crunching, teeth gritting exams… x_x I hope he passes… *crosses fingers*

By the way, the EEE Department is the Overall Champion for this year's Engineering Cup! Hooray! *cheers*

Hmm... here I was thinking that I could probably set a new record by having only one post a month. Then I saw my earlier posts this year (i.e. March 2004)... -_-;

Oh well, since I can't keep the record I'll probably update this often... er.. when I have the time. ^^;

In other things, I was talking to my swimming classmate last thursday. It started with a her being neglected by her mom when she was young and before long she was telling me about some serious personal things. Things like her mom left them when she was still a little girl and her dad is in the States with another family, so basically there's only the two of them (she has a brother) left. I felt bad when I learned about it, I just can't believe that parents could be so... selfish. I guess I'm one of the lucky ones because my mom is always at my side and my dad is very supportive. He can't always be with us because of work, but it's okay... I'm used to it. We're not wealthy... we don't have the best of things but the love they've given me has always inspired me to do my best. (Well, the competition with my brother is also a factor... but that's just sibling rivalry. :P) Somehow I feel proud to be part of this family. My mom is trusted by everyone in the clan and my dad is the 'ideal father' as my cousins would put it. I'm really lucky~~! :)

This week has been very exhausting. x_x Even though on some days I only have half day classes, I am not exempted from staying late at school to finish homework, org work and other work. Plus the teacher that always makes us go to make-up classes. My eyes heve reduced to nothingness with the eyebags I got. They look like these -> ._. The whole week I stayed late over there... -_-;; I do not want to do that again... well, not in the near future... *thinks about 5th year thesis*

I love my pets.. they're so cute together! :D By the way, I have to take a mental note to think of lovebirds names. They've been here for a month and I haven't given them a name... ^^;;

I love Disney Channel! Yesterday I watched Treasure Planet and today I watched Anastacia... I love those movies... <3 I also watched LOTR Two Towers on HBO. It's the fifth (?) time I've watched that movie and I still like it.

"What are we holding on to?" - Frodo Baggins
"That there's still good in this world. And it's worth fighting for!" - Sam Wise

I should've had an exam tomorrow but it has been rescheduled to next week. Now I have to deal with reviewing for all three exams for next week. For now I'll be optimistic... I know I'll finish studying before the exams... so here goes nothing! *plunges into tons of notes*