Wheeze...

I am so relieved that two of the toughest exams are finished. :) After the last one, I felt really drained… like life was literally sucked out of my body. I almost fell down the stairs because I was just staring blankly while I was walking. I felt like a zombie…

The first exam was so hard. I only had some ideas how to solve them but only partially because I haven’t actually practiced solving those types of problems. I got mixed up with my formulas for the generator and the motor. Argh…

Anyway, I went home shortly after eating lunch at the cafeteria (I should’ve eaten at home… -_-;) because I left my book. I went back to school before the next exam… I was a little early for the exam so I just took out my notes and started memorizing formulas. When the teacher came into the room, I took out my calculator and pen after he gave me my answer sheet. I went from problem to problem… then rechecking everything because I was able to finish it. While I was rechecking my paper, I found out a lot of mistakes mostly because I was careless and I didn’t pay attention to the given values (I derived the value of one variable even though it was already given… ^^;;; I didn’t notice it the first time I solved it.) I had to rewrite the whole problem and it took me sometime to finish I was only able to look at the other problems because I had no more time to check them all. When we turned our papers in, I looked at the answer key and I saw that I had a lot of errors in the other problems. I think I was too careless… *sighs*

I'm feeling so frustrated. I know the process on how to solve those problems but while I was doing the math… somehow, something went wrong… so I ended up with the wrong answers. It’s one of those bad days that you just want to go home, get into bed and bury yourself in the covers. But when I turned the tv on, guess what? I found a great movie, “Tuck Everlasting” it’s about a family that could live forever. It made me think a lot about the question, “Would you want to live forever?” I’ve been trying to have a debate with myself whether I want to or not. I’ve listed a couple of pros and cons about it. The good side is that I’ll be able to take my time to do whatever I want, I wouldn’t get sick, I wouldn’t die, I could try risking my live because in the end… I’ll still live. The only catch is that I’d never change physically and all the people I love around me will pass away, perhaps there will come a time that I will want to die because it’s the only thing I can’t do and then I’ll regret living forever because I couldn’t die even if I want to. So in the end… I guess I wouldn’t want to live forever.

Another scenario that I thought… if I lived forever in this 20-year-old body then I’ll be taking EEE for the rest of my life… That would be hell for me… >_<

A quote from “Tuck Everlasting”: “Do not fear death, but rather the unlived life. You don't have to live forever. You just have to live.”

Then after watching that movie, I watched “Anger Management” on HBO. I’ve already seen this on the big screen with JM, Chrissa and Nikki. We even experienced a brownout in the theater… that was really testing our anger management… :P It’s still funny, and now I’m able to get the other jokes. *chuckles* Ah… life when I could still go to the theater, now my only life is home-school-org and nothing else… (unless you count my tv time.. ^^;;)

So all-in-all, I’d say I hate having two exams in a day.>_< But I like watching two good movies after the exams.

Speaking of exams, my brother’s taking the board exams today, tomorrow up to Tuesday. 4 days of head-splitting, knuckle crunching, teeth gritting exams… x_x I hope he passes… *crosses fingers*

By the way, the EEE Department is the Overall Champion for this year's Engineering Cup! Hooray! *cheers*