I should stop dreaming right now.

I mean, hello?! Finishing my thesis in 7 days? Am I asking for the impossible?

Haaaah...

I've been doing my best, I really have been.. but it's still not enough. I finished all my experiments last week. I finished the contact angle determination and gave the samples for AFM on Monday. It's just too bad I couldn't get a good SEM sked this week because it was already booked. I got a spot for Saturday afternoon and whole day on Monday next week.

Things missing from my thesis:
1. Finish getting the contact angles and making statistical observations.
2. SEM pictures, which I'll be doing this weekend up to next week.
3. Aluminum deposited on top of Polyimide (Need a Vacuum Evaporator.. huhu...), my adviser hasn't been able to contact the people we need. :(
4. Bend Test
5. Peel Test
6. Analysis... look for trends... @.@

So yeah... I have finally accepted the fact that after two years of having good grades, I'm going to get an INC on my classcard.

*super grade conscious person breaking down*

AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Why does it have to happen right now?! Right when everything is falling to place?!!! Why? why? why??? I tried my best! I really did! I have sacrificed a lot of sleep, eat and study time just to finish my experiments... I went home at midnight just to finish everything, I made permits, all those authorization passes and asked a friend to stay really late at the building just to be able to work at the lab (because I'm not allowed to work alone). I mean... I'm killing myself over this...

Why can't I just finish it this semester...?

Why? *cries*

*meltdown complete*

Okay... so it seems... I haven't FULLY accepted the fact that I'll get an INC in my classcard. :(

I feel really down right now.

I want ice cream. ._.